Noticed by the Almighty

At times I wonder whether God notices ... whether he cares ... desperate for reassurance of His love and presence I quietly cried out. My heart, mind, soul and body ached with "emptiness." The inevitable moment was near: "good-bye Kristi." And then it happened ...

We were at 7113B Capitol Ave, Columbus AFB, MS 39705. It had been a long day of travel, unloading the trailer, carrying furnishings into Kristi and Adam's house and helping in any way possible to set up this new home. As long as my mind was occupied with the tasks at hand I was OK.

After a very welcome cool shower, I sat on the couch watching Kristi, Julie, Adam and two of his buddies still working. As I gazed around the house I felt it ... the inevitable emptiness only parents know as their children leave home for the final time. Quietly I said good-night and retreated to the "guest room."

As I lay in bed the quietness weighed heavy on my body and mind. A few tears later I whispered to God describing the ache I was feeling and asking for His Spirit to quiet my racing, crying mind. Suddenly I remembered that earlier in the day Kristi had sent a text message instructing me to turn the radio to 104.5 when we neared Columbus. So I reached for my mp3 player and tuned to 104.5 (funny moment: it was already set to 104.5 since that is the station at home I listen to for Cleveland Indians baseball games).

He will carry me by Mark Schulz was playing ... I found the reassurance I longed for at the moment. I fell asleep and slept about as good as one can considering. I am humbled, encouraged, thankful and empowered with the reality of being noticed and cared for by the Almighty One.

Oh, it is still difficult, there have been a few tears, and, I do feel so empty, however, God's love will carry me.

PS: Next weekend Julie and I say good-bye to Kyle and Lisa as they move from nearby North Canton to their new home near Wichita, KS! Last night we helped them box up stuff at the apartment, driving home that "emptiness" was on my mind again. Thank you God for loving on me, noticing me, during these days with He will carry me.

He will carry me, by Mark Schulz, album: Stories and Songs

I call, You hear me
I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty

You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me

chorus:
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me

I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me

chorus

And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through
The storm

chorus